Bad news

My lung cancer has metastisized to my bones. I have 9 tumors in various places such as my ribs, my leg, my collar bone, 2 of my vertebrae and other places. Today was a VERY bad day for me emotionally. So much has been going in my head. I didn't sleep well last night. Today as I was sitting in the waiting room, more and more people filed in. It was like a funnel and they never stopped. I finally lost it and started crying, I was so sad for all these people who had cancer. It just wouldn't stop, there were nearly no seats left in a very large waiting room. It was so incredibly overwhelming. I left the room and stood alone in the hallway crying my eyes out. Then I went back in and sat back down next to my husband. There is a lady who is a family friend who always checks in with me when she knows I'm coming. She sat down, held my hand and let me cry. Went into the appointment and the nurse came in. She hasn't been there in awhile. She shared why. She had been diagnosed with cancer. She talked and talked and I thanked her for sharing her story with me. Dr T came in. She looked at me and said okay what's going on? All I could do was cry. Peter explained. She said she had mixed news. I knew it wasn't going to be good. No changes in brain or lung but massive tumors on my bones. I'm devastated. I start chemo in 2 weeks. She wanted to start right away, but I have a few more things to do before I might possible become incapacitated. My head is spinning. I've told most of the immediate family, the big kids and Tammy and Denise.

I am asking all of you please NOT to post anything on facebook, no wishes, no prayers, nothing. I need this to remain on the blog or if you can't post on the blog you can email me at velda65 at cogeco.ca if necessary

Thank you for all of your support - My family and my friends and to Barb and Tammy for coming to the house right away when I called them.